" Kalluri " - a Gentle Breeze ~ ends with a Storm

As i came out of the movie screen - humming the tune "Unn'arugill Varugayi'll.." - i could see moist-red eyes eveywhere, and i could see in far distance - a girl of about my age or less - tears rolling down her cheeks and hugging her friends arm and resting her head on her friend's shoulder - and her friend too was in a similar mood - Rats ..!! - i said to myself - this is just a movie "what's there to cry about" - silly girls...

Three movies in recent times "Kaadhal" ~ "Paruthiveeran" ~ "Veyil" ~ and now with the similar tone "Kalluri". I wonder what has happened to these directors nowadays- heartless murderers - they are giving such a depressing conclusion to their breezy first-halves - But i m not complaining here - actually, i liked all the above mentioned films - seemed Realistic - and they were true to their script.
And one more coincidence is that all these three movies are based on the rustic atmosphere of Madurai and it's surrounding areas..

But - i personally feel that these director's here are trying to prove a point - "I make movies with My Style - Watch them or Leave them..!!" ~ I guess their Insane-Attitude is well backed by people like `Shankar` and `Gnanavel`.


Why can't these people give audience a "Happy ending", nowadays the quotes like "And they lived happily everafter" are outdated - i m betting on this - you will now, not be able to find this quote even in children's bed-time story books.


I'm telling you - The World is going Insane.


I can't imagine how Betraying are these movies to the audience - who come to spend their time to relax and enjoy a movie - laugh - forget their fast-paced life for a 2.5 hrs - but for them, i would like to say a statement less than 10 words.. "Sorry, Dudes an Dudettes - this film is not for you, and if you sure want to watch this movie and still enjoy - please leave the cinema hall before the climax - you will be happy"


Err.. - that my little statement got a little too long 33 words to be exact [:p]


And i walked out of the cinema hall, trying to avoid any eye-contact with anyone around... and in distance i could see two girls upset over the conclusion - i hurried to the bike stand, pumped my kicker - Vrooom... i sped out of the parking lot - and when i reached home, my mother questioned, "What happened to your eyes - why are they disturbed ?"


I replied - "Driving bike @ 70 kmph is sure to disturb your eyes "


I went into my room and switched off the lights - Guys, i m honest here - It is difficult to swallow your tears, and when you try to do that it hurts more - and i succeeded in swallowing my tears but i think i would be more depressed than this -- if i had cried out hugging that girl, well... i mean if i had cried out like that girl.. ;)


Directors of these movies..???? -They are Total SUCKERS..!! ~ You need a heavy heart made of Iron to watch these films and still not be moved.... :X


Boys don't cry - and so do insanes.


[It's is difficult to imagine such a painful ending - Three girl students of the Tamil Nadu Agricultural University were burnt alive when their University bus was allegedly set afire by miscreants at Dharmapuri during February 2000 in violence that broke out following the conviction Ms. Jayalalithaa in the Kodaikanal hotel case - is the justice being done fairly enough ? -- Death sentence to three people who were directly involved
...And did someone forget something..?? -The recent death of three persons in the Dinakaran newspaper office in Madurai ~ It's a funny World]


~ Keep this in mind - the World and so the Governments in future is gonn'a be ruled by Insanes.

And about the movie - I am confident that "Kalluri" would be a Blockbuster.




Song on my PC:

"Unnarugi'll Varugayi'll - ulley oru Paravasam - Unnale Thozane - Naan illai en vasam.." from KALLURI

Driving me Nuts.

My main prob is that I hate sitting indoors at my desk, in front of a low quality monitor with depressing fluorescent lights overhead, 8 or 9 hours a day, Mon - Fri. I just turned 23 and it feels like work is sucking my life away. Really don't want to be one of those people who dread going to work everyday, but do it all the same for the money, and before you know it, your life is almost over! Am I being too idealistic or flighty?? I trust that some of the folks on here might be able to offer me some advice, or at least give me some food for thought and welcome any constructive criticism you may throw my way.

Let's get lost

"There is so much to think about - but - So less we can understand...

It was an usual walk to my work-place, but the mood today was different - i wondered, Why are we all not same, why should one be having an unique face, name, his/her own features... and Why should each and every leaf in a tree should be different from the others, what make every individual oxygen atom i breathe and my blood carries to my brain be different, what makes a monkey different from a Comet - all have the same building blocks, quarks -> subatomic particles - > atoms... but it is so weird just thinking like this.

Is there a Big Simulation program running in each and every brain here, that creates an illusion that everything around us is at the same place as we see - (I m still not sure that if my keyboard ever exists..!!)

Imagine a program (Similar to a computer code being executed somewhere by someone) and we are all the Objects and Functions in it - (Not inspired from the Matrix Trilogy..!!)

It is just a simple word - "Why"
What was the reason that the pebble lying beside the road had to be at the place it has to be, what is it's purpose being there at that exact location in this three dimensional maze - that we call Earth.

What makes the single grain of rice - that i eat was custom made for me from a distant-remote part to reach my tummy ?

What makes the heavens(galaxy, universe and stuff) hang balanced as they are...


....There is so much to think about - but - So less we can understand"

- Let's get Lost.


Is this the way to - Experience God ? - Feel God ? - Realise God ?

I guess - I just said a prayer.

Live from Hell.

“Here over an acre of ground lay dead and dying people. You could not see which was which ... The living lay with their heads against the corpses and around them moved the awful, ghostly procession of emaciated, aimless people, with nothing to do and with no hope of life, unable to move out of your way, unable to look at the terrible sights around them ... Babies had been born here, tiny wizened things that could not live ... A mother, driven mad, screamed at a British sentry to give her milk for her child, and thrust the tiny mite into his arms, then ran off, crying terribly. He opened the bundle and found the baby had been dead for days.
This day at Belsen was the most horrible of my life.[ref.]”

Jeffrey Lang

Cobblestone Runway

"Former Glory"

The Amazing period of time - when i was in my school, was the best part of my life.

I was recognized by almost everyone there, i was happy when so many people were interested in me, "Everybody Loved Me and then Everybody Disappeared".

"These Days"

Almost Lacking the spirit and enthusiasm that once almost filled my body with every inch, the young and confident me, bubbling with energy is lost in the crowd.The crowd,where the neighbour doesn't cares who lives the next door.

"Least That I Can Do"

See my family happy, that i have transformed from a helpless crying infant into a succesful Man right before their eyes.Gift myself with a smile when i see kids on street playing with marbles, school going kids enjoying rain - where as the grown-ups run for cover.

"God Loves Everyone"

I know how spoilt i was as a kid ~ the meanest and nastiest kid on the block. Bullying around.Liar.Thief.Adamant.Revengeful.Violent.Crazy.Disobedient. But God loved me for the everything i shouldn't have been, He didn't had to show any aversion towards me.He still Loved me.

"Disappearing Act"

My first job.Great expectaions.Launchpad for a great career.They were short lived.One solid year passed by.My co-joinees - i saw them begin to settle in a specific area and specialize it.Meanwhile i was juggled on the basis of requirement.Some say you've got to lose to win.I hoped for,my luck to stumble in.But,I had to do something to avoid being treated like a Twelfth man.I chose to do a 'Disappearing Act'.I broke away from Bangalore and moved to Chennai with nothing but hope.And i knew, my hope would be tested.

"For a Moment There"

For a moment I swore - I knew where i was going.Never Knowing.If it would go anywhere.
I should have waited - my heart told me. May be i should have done that earlier - my mind ordered me.The current patch would be the most difficult and i must be cautious is what i could understand.

"Gold in Them Hills"

Every new challenging situation is a new hill to climb.With a new adventure in mind.Exploring for the treasure - a gold mine.You won't get anything unless you make a move.Worrying won't get you anywhere, Move out of your comfort zone.There is Gold ! Gold ! everywhere, and you must know that gold doesn't walks - No one knows how the day might end.You may not wake up tomorrow.But,Tomorrow never comes!!

"Heart's Desire"

A lovely hut.A carefree life.Food for thought and something to be alive.A Sleep on the meadows and gazing the heavens at night.Grazing the cattle and feeding the hens.Wealth means nothing.Friends always there for me and just peace of mind.
A ferrai to drive.No time to say 'Hi'.Medicines for health.3 hours of sleep.Gazing the Liquid Crystals.Fortune with no future.Complaining everything and blaming everyone.Running all the way to school till grave.With no knowledge of who are friends and who are not.

~ Just a Century passed since 1900 and then everything had to change.

"Dragonfly in the Bush"

Buzzing around from bush to bush.He took a wrong turn and was lost without trace.The sticky tongue, doing the damage.What is the competition? - It is all or Nothing at all. Just like us?-In the crowd without a face.

"The Less I Know"

It is a waste of time.To analyze what i know.I knew less,but the less i knew - was meaningful.It is just confusion now, with nowhere to go.Love can bring me back.And no one to Love and and nobody loves.The whole picture is fake.Now I know more, and i wish i knew less.

"Up the Road"

A quarter century rolls by.Retirement on edge.Driving up the road with my partner. A drive along the Manhatttan.I heard that my daughter had married in India.The stars on the horizon greeting the evening, and sun sinking in the west.The time would soon come - to say good bye.With memories intact and they being the only source of link to mother and motherland.

"Best Friends"

She cried over my coffin, she had shared her life with me.I always wanted to see - Who cries when i would be gone.My soul watching my lifeless corpse being transported back to my own land.And so it arrived there, the dead and dumb 'myself'.Pushed into a grave that i might be sharing with a lot many buried before me in the same place,new friends - i said to myself.But some six or seven people standing six feet above and dropping the moist soil over my dead myself.Their eyes were moist as well.I said to my newfound grave-friend over his hairy-beard, "You see there - They were my best friends".



P.S:
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This post was inspired from the Musical Album "Cobblestone Runway" , by a canadian artist Ron Sexsmith.And each Paragraph is the title from that album(But the words inside are of course mine).Frankly, i haven't listened to them, but the lyrics i came across was filled with soul and freshness.This post may resemble a bombed Art film, but i was happy typing down this, i wanted to believe that i am a poet and then the thoughts began to assemble and flow, just like a river.

Time Travel, Universe and Invisibility ~ An Insane's Debate.

I had grown up watching dumb english movies, and reading science-fiction books and comics.
I hope that is an integral part of everyone's transition to adult-hood.

Now, there are a few concepts that i am going to inter-relate with my little understanding on Space and Time.

There had been continuous makes and remakes, and remakes of remakes going on in the film industry, one of them being "The Time Machine".

One book that everyone would have known about,the famous H.G.Wells Classic "The Time Machine" had kindled my thoughts to make this post.

Time travel though looks an easy task on the book, is really a complex idea to comprehend.

Okay, now coming to my simple thought that will transform into a series of questions in next few lines,

The Big-bang hypotheses was the beginning of Time and Space (as i have understood).

Now, this is clear right..?

Coming to time travel,

Time travel as mentioned can be journeyed into future as well as past, consider a plan that a journey is being undertaken on time machine through past, so if i am to debate on this situation, If there is a certain way to travel to past, then there is a solid chance to travel to the Beginning,
travel to the time before the event of Big bang..!!

So, well i am not able to justify any conclusion on this post.... but it really gives me a lot of doubts.

• What was the origin of Bigbang?
• What happened before Bigbang?
• Why did the Bigbang had to happen in the first place? (Why not a 'Small Pop')
• So, if matter existed as a dense unstable mass of hot sphere before going Bang, where did that matter come from?
• With the sphere exploding and throwing out quarks, galaxies,nebulae and stuffs like that and later sun growing out from a dust of that gigantic explosion, earth being hit by asteroids and comets during her initial years, and if so.... did life came into earth by a series of accidents..????

Ah, and one more thing,let me think, what happens when light falls on any object, it throws up a shadow - Simple..!! - But your body is built of tightly packed atoms, mostly of cabon and hydrogen.Light is actually dual natured, behaves as a wave as well as a particle.

So if light as a wave or particle hits you(the atoms in your body), it definitely has a chance to pass through you..!! (Remember sound waves and microwaves can still passs through you - so the question is what if light is a wave ?)

So, if the light do passes through you, You become transparent - that is Invisible, Bingo..!!!

Now, Enough playing around - forget this and get back to work.

~ Bless Einstein and Hawkings.(And lot of people there and before who tried,... Being different ~ Being Insane..!!)

Rudeness knows no bounds of shame

Most of my previous posts seems to have a darker theme(except a few), my friend commented reading my blog could make any happy person plunge into abyss of depression..!!!

Sorry if my blog seemed to be as bad a crap as an RGV film

Well, there are a lot of things that could have been posted here earlier, and most of my idle thoughts in this blog are a kind of spooky..!! ~ making many readers out there think that i am a cold blooded psychopathic scary monsterous 'Insane' jotting down words that would make babies make their nappies wet and most adults just spring to their feet at my name. :)

But i have a gift, i never remember someone's comments, be it an appretiation or criticism, i just never seem to care for those words, It is 'I' keeps me going,may be it is bad or may be it is not.. I believe that "My mind is the only thing that exists", and i am sure that someday i would prove that there is no truth - but Insanity..!!!

Now i feel that i was spoiling the essence of my own posts - i am a little rude here , may be i could have presented them in an appealing manner, but...... whoa, wait a second.... what am i speaking about..????

~ Insanity liveth the longest.

Kaleidoscope - How much do we know ?

"Ugly is Not Bad - But Truth scares more"

Disclaimer: By making this post, I am not saying that only Ugly stuff is good. All I m trying to do is give a few examples where Ugly looking pictures did better and had more meaning/truth than beautiful looking snaps.

~ INSANITY is Ugly.

CHAK DE INDIA..!

Chak De India (English: "Come On India" )


Saluting girl power!

This is the tale of a group of 16 hockey players divided by region... ,divided by seniority and economic status - ranging from the tomboy Haryanvi Komal, the feisty Balbir from Punjab, the tough-egoistic senior Bindiya Naik, the just-married Vidya Sharma to the lovely, rich miss Preeti Sabharwal involved with a cricket star. And their coach Kabir Khan (Shah Rukh Khan) who had been dismissed from his post as the captain of the Indian team for conceding the vital goals in a crucial final against Pakistan.

Kabir’s aim is to redeem his lost glory through this women’s team! He trains them in the sport as well as spirit and teaches them the lesson of team-effort and unity. He binds them together in the tricolours of national pride. When the Hockey Association refuses to send the team to Australia for the finals, Kabir throws in a challenge match - pitching his girls against the men’s team. Although the girls lose the match, they win the confidence of the officials and off they go for the finals to Australia.

The phenomenal rise of the Indian women’s team as the World Champs is what the story is about. But it is writer Jaideep Sahni’s subtle screenplay extolling woman power in scenes like the girls uniting to take on eve-teasers in a local cafe,the final party scene where the team parades in in ceremonial sarees...the film strings in touching moments - incidents that will probably change some biases within all of us against girls, against a married sportswoman, a pretty girl, a rustic, unrefined girl and so on. Each time the coach rises above all the divides and cements every crack.

The entire hockey team delivers a scintillating performance on and off the field. Shah Rukh Khan is at his restrained best - who can accuse of him hamming after this very subtly- nuanced performance? Touching and thoughtful, this is what modern cinema should be. A special mention for editor Amitabh Shukla’s crisp cut. Bravo Shimit Amin and cheers to Aditya Chopra for backing such a courageously offbeat venture.

Waiting for Farah Khan's next Thriller - "Om Shanthi Om"

Calvin and Hobbes

No Turning Back ...

I am a documentary maker.
I joined the National Geographic Society in 2004, when i was in my second year at School.The team was involved in a project named "The Living Edens".
There was always a fasination,a thrill which always made me to think of the science(It's rather generic, be it History,Philosophy,Religion,Astronomy,Automobile science,Entertainment,Oceonography,Egyptology.. whatever stuff out there tries to ignite a spark into me and giving me a wonderful feeling,a Thought...!!)

May be i wanted to become a documentary maker, i could have joined National Geographic Society as a member, possibly i could have lived out my dream of understaning the things out there in a better way, instead i did my school specialization in Computers, and did my engineering specialization for Electricals and joined a reputed Software Firm.

This was not the only thing that cold have happened,i might ahve been a post-man, or manager of a shoe company, possibly an actor or a director or an enterpreneur with Ferrari to transport or a government minister with two Ferrari...

Or,..It is quite possible that i may not have wanted what i have right now in my hand 'OR' it is also possible that i didn't know "How" to do the thing i wanted to become... 'OR' possibly i didn't even knew "What" was the thing i wanted to do at first place...


I just remember Kannadasan's Lines at this point,

"Aasaiye alai pole,
Naamellam athan mele,
Odam pole adiduvome vaazh nalile
Paruvam ennum kaatrrile
parakkum kaathal therile
aanum pennum mahizhvar
suham peruvar - athisayam kaanpaar
Naalai ulahin paathaiyai inre
yaar kaanuvar?"

So to those Ignorant bloggers, who don't know the language Tamil or don't even know that there a language called tamil esists, here is the english version,

"With passions as waves
we dance like the boat over it,
in our passage of life
With the wind of youth,
by flying in the chariot of love,
man and woman make merry, enjoy
and surprise themselves
but who can guess tomorrow's path
today itself?"

One of my all-time favourites, is the one which maybe I heard for the first time on "Oliyum-Oliyum", when I was just six or seven years old. The deep-throated resonating voice of playback singer Tiruchi Loganathan, had fixed this Kannadasan lyric, in my mind forever, i m not sure but i guess it is from the movie "Thai Piranthaal Vazhi PIrakkum"

Even in this lyric, Kannadasan reinforces the theme, "sorrows are credit of life, while the joys are debit, with the balance being mere dreams, and who can comprehend the arithmetic of fate?".


When you look back, there will be things you will regret.

that you made the wrong decision... no you re WRONG..!!!

You made the right decision.

Life is about decisions.Because, whatever decision you make is the only one you can make,otherwise you could make a different one.

Everything we do we chose.

so there is nothing to regret.

You are the person you chose to be..!!

Oscar Wilde said right,
Most people are other people.
Their thoughts are someone else's opinions.
Their lives a mimicry.
Their passions a quotation.

A bad-idea in use is always better than a good-idea lying idle.

And with my point of view, Stealing from somewhere that resonmates with inspiration or fuels your imagination is no wrong, because authenticity is invaluable and originality is non-existent.

And just don't be negative about rejection, the world is what you think of it - so think of it differently and your life will change.



I would like to conclude this post with a BernadShaw Quote

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world.
The unreasonable man adapts the world to himself.
All progress depends on the unreasonable man"


This post is inspired from the book "Whatever you think - Think the opposite" by Paul Arden.




Insanity is undying until the Sanity exists.