Live from Hell.

“Here over an acre of ground lay dead and dying people. You could not see which was which ... The living lay with their heads against the corpses and around them moved the awful, ghostly procession of emaciated, aimless people, with nothing to do and with no hope of life, unable to move out of your way, unable to look at the terrible sights around them ... Babies had been born here, tiny wizened things that could not live ... A mother, driven mad, screamed at a British sentry to give her milk for her child, and thrust the tiny mite into his arms, then ran off, crying terribly. He opened the bundle and found the baby had been dead for days.
This day at Belsen was the most horrible of my life.[ref.]”

Jeffrey Lang

Cobblestone Runway

"Former Glory"

The Amazing period of time - when i was in my school, was the best part of my life.

I was recognized by almost everyone there, i was happy when so many people were interested in me, "Everybody Loved Me and then Everybody Disappeared".

"These Days"

Almost Lacking the spirit and enthusiasm that once almost filled my body with every inch, the young and confident me, bubbling with energy is lost in the crowd.The crowd,where the neighbour doesn't cares who lives the next door.

"Least That I Can Do"

See my family happy, that i have transformed from a helpless crying infant into a succesful Man right before their eyes.Gift myself with a smile when i see kids on street playing with marbles, school going kids enjoying rain - where as the grown-ups run for cover.

"God Loves Everyone"

I know how spoilt i was as a kid ~ the meanest and nastiest kid on the block. Bullying around.Liar.Thief.Adamant.Revengeful.Violent.Crazy.Disobedient. But God loved me for the everything i shouldn't have been, He didn't had to show any aversion towards me.He still Loved me.

"Disappearing Act"

My first job.Great expectaions.Launchpad for a great career.They were short lived.One solid year passed by.My co-joinees - i saw them begin to settle in a specific area and specialize it.Meanwhile i was juggled on the basis of requirement.Some say you've got to lose to win.I hoped for,my luck to stumble in.But,I had to do something to avoid being treated like a Twelfth man.I chose to do a 'Disappearing Act'.I broke away from Bangalore and moved to Chennai with nothing but hope.And i knew, my hope would be tested.

"For a Moment There"

For a moment I swore - I knew where i was going.Never Knowing.If it would go anywhere.
I should have waited - my heart told me. May be i should have done that earlier - my mind ordered me.The current patch would be the most difficult and i must be cautious is what i could understand.

"Gold in Them Hills"

Every new challenging situation is a new hill to climb.With a new adventure in mind.Exploring for the treasure - a gold mine.You won't get anything unless you make a move.Worrying won't get you anywhere, Move out of your comfort zone.There is Gold ! Gold ! everywhere, and you must know that gold doesn't walks - No one knows how the day might end.You may not wake up tomorrow.But,Tomorrow never comes!!

"Heart's Desire"

A lovely hut.A carefree life.Food for thought and something to be alive.A Sleep on the meadows and gazing the heavens at night.Grazing the cattle and feeding the hens.Wealth means nothing.Friends always there for me and just peace of mind.
A ferrai to drive.No time to say 'Hi'.Medicines for health.3 hours of sleep.Gazing the Liquid Crystals.Fortune with no future.Complaining everything and blaming everyone.Running all the way to school till grave.With no knowledge of who are friends and who are not.

~ Just a Century passed since 1900 and then everything had to change.

"Dragonfly in the Bush"

Buzzing around from bush to bush.He took a wrong turn and was lost without trace.The sticky tongue, doing the damage.What is the competition? - It is all or Nothing at all. Just like us?-In the crowd without a face.

"The Less I Know"

It is a waste of time.To analyze what i know.I knew less,but the less i knew - was meaningful.It is just confusion now, with nowhere to go.Love can bring me back.And no one to Love and and nobody loves.The whole picture is fake.Now I know more, and i wish i knew less.

"Up the Road"

A quarter century rolls by.Retirement on edge.Driving up the road with my partner. A drive along the Manhatttan.I heard that my daughter had married in India.The stars on the horizon greeting the evening, and sun sinking in the west.The time would soon come - to say good bye.With memories intact and they being the only source of link to mother and motherland.

"Best Friends"

She cried over my coffin, she had shared her life with me.I always wanted to see - Who cries when i would be gone.My soul watching my lifeless corpse being transported back to my own land.And so it arrived there, the dead and dumb 'myself'.Pushed into a grave that i might be sharing with a lot many buried before me in the same place,new friends - i said to myself.But some six or seven people standing six feet above and dropping the moist soil over my dead myself.Their eyes were moist as well.I said to my newfound grave-friend over his hairy-beard, "You see there - They were my best friends".



P.S:
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This post was inspired from the Musical Album "Cobblestone Runway" , by a canadian artist Ron Sexsmith.And each Paragraph is the title from that album(But the words inside are of course mine).Frankly, i haven't listened to them, but the lyrics i came across was filled with soul and freshness.This post may resemble a bombed Art film, but i was happy typing down this, i wanted to believe that i am a poet and then the thoughts began to assemble and flow, just like a river.

Time Travel, Universe and Invisibility ~ An Insane's Debate.

I had grown up watching dumb english movies, and reading science-fiction books and comics.
I hope that is an integral part of everyone's transition to adult-hood.

Now, there are a few concepts that i am going to inter-relate with my little understanding on Space and Time.

There had been continuous makes and remakes, and remakes of remakes going on in the film industry, one of them being "The Time Machine".

One book that everyone would have known about,the famous H.G.Wells Classic "The Time Machine" had kindled my thoughts to make this post.

Time travel though looks an easy task on the book, is really a complex idea to comprehend.

Okay, now coming to my simple thought that will transform into a series of questions in next few lines,

The Big-bang hypotheses was the beginning of Time and Space (as i have understood).

Now, this is clear right..?

Coming to time travel,

Time travel as mentioned can be journeyed into future as well as past, consider a plan that a journey is being undertaken on time machine through past, so if i am to debate on this situation, If there is a certain way to travel to past, then there is a solid chance to travel to the Beginning,
travel to the time before the event of Big bang..!!

So, well i am not able to justify any conclusion on this post.... but it really gives me a lot of doubts.

• What was the origin of Bigbang?
• What happened before Bigbang?
• Why did the Bigbang had to happen in the first place? (Why not a 'Small Pop')
• So, if matter existed as a dense unstable mass of hot sphere before going Bang, where did that matter come from?
• With the sphere exploding and throwing out quarks, galaxies,nebulae and stuffs like that and later sun growing out from a dust of that gigantic explosion, earth being hit by asteroids and comets during her initial years, and if so.... did life came into earth by a series of accidents..????

Ah, and one more thing,let me think, what happens when light falls on any object, it throws up a shadow - Simple..!! - But your body is built of tightly packed atoms, mostly of cabon and hydrogen.Light is actually dual natured, behaves as a wave as well as a particle.

So if light as a wave or particle hits you(the atoms in your body), it definitely has a chance to pass through you..!! (Remember sound waves and microwaves can still passs through you - so the question is what if light is a wave ?)

So, if the light do passes through you, You become transparent - that is Invisible, Bingo..!!!

Now, Enough playing around - forget this and get back to work.

~ Bless Einstein and Hawkings.(And lot of people there and before who tried,... Being different ~ Being Insane..!!)

Rudeness knows no bounds of shame

Most of my previous posts seems to have a darker theme(except a few), my friend commented reading my blog could make any happy person plunge into abyss of depression..!!!

Sorry if my blog seemed to be as bad a crap as an RGV film

Well, there are a lot of things that could have been posted here earlier, and most of my idle thoughts in this blog are a kind of spooky..!! ~ making many readers out there think that i am a cold blooded psychopathic scary monsterous 'Insane' jotting down words that would make babies make their nappies wet and most adults just spring to their feet at my name. :)

But i have a gift, i never remember someone's comments, be it an appretiation or criticism, i just never seem to care for those words, It is 'I' keeps me going,may be it is bad or may be it is not.. I believe that "My mind is the only thing that exists", and i am sure that someday i would prove that there is no truth - but Insanity..!!!

Now i feel that i was spoiling the essence of my own posts - i am a little rude here , may be i could have presented them in an appealing manner, but...... whoa, wait a second.... what am i speaking about..????

~ Insanity liveth the longest.