Thursday, July 01, 2010

Nobody's perfect. I'm a Nobody.

The world is a sea of pretentions.Fools pretend to be intelligent , cheats pretend to be honest , foes pretend to be friends, and all of us go through such stress trying to be what we are not.
We are so mindful of what others think of us.We fear hate and rejection.

But what i have learnt so far is that trying to please anyone is like trying to move a mountain.There are very few people who are really happy with one's success.Whenver someone has achieved something , with the exception of their family and close friends,I doubt people have really felt happy for them .
Hence, I have acquired this care-a-less attitude about what others think of me.I hate to pretend and try to be my own self.Its difficult but once you acquire this ,it can be the most comforting and liberating attitude to have.But I right now do not worry about how many people will be around when bad times come upon me.

Its easy to be the centre of attraction with people around you,cracking jokes and sharp ,witty one liners..or nonsense speech (esp. in college).
What is difficult , is to find a person to talk to when you dont have any joke to crack.Its easy to gather "friends" for the party a birthday-goat throws , what is difficult is to find a friend who will listen and comfort you when you fail the exam.
Its easy to find people for company for a stroll in the garden , what is difficult is to find a friend to accompany you during a hard trip under a burning sun.

I do realise that there will be times in my life when there will be such situations, everyone'll have to make this hard trip,when they have no wit/jokes to entertain anybody,when
they would have failed.
It is in these times when a true friend is needed.And for this true friend , you would not need to pretend.The friend would not need you to be someone he/she desires,but would accept you for what you are.
Who would like me not for being at an MNC, not because I have a good job,not because I am a "so called" an achiever but would like me for what I am , and not for what I have done or not done.It is so very difficult to find such a person , but to find him/ her , you dont need to pretend to be someone else,but to just be urself.

I know the above thing would not make much of sense ,and is nothing new , but just wanted to write it down , just wanted to express how self-centered and deceptive this world can sometimes be like ...



"You're going to die a horrible death, remember. It's all good training, and you'll enjoy it more if you keep the facts in mind.
Take your dying with some seriousness, however, laughing on the way to your execution is not generally understood by less advanced lifeforms, and they'll call you crazy."


- RICHARD BACH (Illusions)

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