Sayonara - 10,000 days of life.

"The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you figure out why." 

~ Mark Twain

“I was lost all these years; but now I found my self”, moving to alternate pastures - so the blogging stops here. The response for any question remotely in line with the "Why quit the blog?" part shall be dealt in below segments.
Last time there was a piece of emptiness that filled in as I had quit blogging, and so I returned for a second stint that lasted much longer until now.
This post is part of proper goodbye, as I do not intend this space to be dangling without "the story ends here" sign (though I see the fact that, if I had passed away suddenly, this space would have been left dangling for sure).

People say good bye to various things as their life evolves, and I've decided to say a good bye to this blog which I had been using as a part of exercise to discover my identity - since the end of my college (way back in 2006), time offered some amazing experiences through these years to analyse, contemplate, mimic, ridicule, appreciate and be hypocritical about various things that flowed through my life in those 5 five years. And doing so had been a very interesting learning-curve. It had pushed me to constantly expand the boundaries of my knowledge, to seek answers for all and any question I had.

At one point I began investigating psychology(Freud, Carl Jung & Bernays), and any attempt to put my psyche to test didn't turn out very constructive. I could easily be classified to fit to many disorders and therefore psychology as subject lacked the insight to have a comprehensive oversight.

Moreover exploring the distant corners of my thoughts linked to the past or future frightened me by some of the dark experiences I encountered there. I ended up depressed by the pointlessness and sadness of the world. There was hope though, I became skeptical against all human inputs and interpretations of abstract and so called scientific results, a beginning, and had a long way to go. But I see that I then believed in something which defied locial empirical explanations - such grinding in my heart made me search for answers through the philosophy of science, mathematics, mind , language and religion.

What causes our consciousness, our awareness to be confined to a present? Understanding the why; what is the universe; what is matter; what is time and space; and why is it that way - what is reality. I had all these questions in mind, yet tried to drown them in my daily chores and sometimes worse - made mockery of my own questions (some of which amateurishly is reflected in my earliest blogposts). 

But there were some signs that were cracking the cage of my long-rusted heart and began polishing it through some unlikely sources.I was quite active on online forums pertaining to these topics, and somebody posted a link about the linguistic miracle of the Qur'an. I had known about them before, but always overlooked and had waved that off thinking it would probably be interpretation and make-belief. I decided to give a try and five minutes into that got me intrigued. Made me conclude that I should check Qur'an myself in its source language, rather than relying on translations, and the result I found it flawless. Not only did my attempts in finding flaws fell short, but I was also shocked by the profoundness, perfection and deepness of the words used. I was also intrigued by how the book felt psychologically custom made for the human mind and also garnished with signs which have been scientifically proven statements pertaining to fields of embryology, geology, space-science, origin of the universe, philosophy, knowledge and of course psychology .
In short, the book seemed like pure genius on every level and aspect. Made me conclude no way was this nothing more then a fraction of someone's imagination several centuries ago; as I had first thought simply because, such an explanation just doesn't add up.
Thus began a new journey of self-discovery through the portals of mathematics, mind, psyche and science, and Quran which are all actually 'sign-posts' towards Divine (i.e, Spirituality, Religion, and God)...

I have been through an evolution/metamorphosis of some sort during this blog-phase, and therefore now definitely - I neither represent the insane-blogger, nor the agnostic-anarchist who may be reflected in my earlier posts - I'm a changed man. I apologise for having said any wrong/intolerant/pride-filled/ignorant message through this media.  There are couple of blog-posts of my earlier times with which I could no longer identify myself, and few of them I detest and am ashamed of putting such meaningless narcissistic posts.

Today I've come a long way (infact the opposite direction) from there and shrugged-off those materialistic-wordlview for a Quranic-worldview, yet I realize I still have a lot to learn and a lot of details to fill in. But one moment(during the learning process) during this phase was like a light switch. Finally, because of which, I could at least see where I'm going as I'm looking for my path, finally I had a solid base to build upon.

I began as a seeker, evolved into a rebel & warrior against the self, and there has now come a phase where I have grown into hopefully a mature human who feels close to his purpose of existence and a greater sense of responsibility, and this blog did help me find that purpose to a great extent in the seeking process.

And as the clock has ticked 00:00 hours, this counts as my 10,000th day of life on earth - and God willing here's for another 10,000 days of life.

Well, life is too short to give explanations for things like departing. Just as 'death' is natural and integral part of existence. Imagine, the angel of death stole this account's credentials, the blog died today. It's over.

Wishing my beloved brothers, sisters & friends in humanity - a peaceful and meaningful life ahead.

If I could end with just a single advice:
"Be honest to yourself!"

The key to everything is the way you start. All beginnings are difficult, because you are trying to turn things from one direction to the opposite direction. But once a start has been made, you begin to get used to the direction you are going in and things are no longer so hard. The level of awe and devotion a person attains each day depends on the way he starts. Every day you should go backwards in the sense that you should always try and draw inspiration from the start, which was the hardest thing of all. You must always make a frest start.
-  Nachman of Breslov

May the Master of the Worlds help us all to have great beginnings and to use each beginning as a springboard to start over and over and over, and strive & struggle to keep ourslves on clear & straight path in our ibadah and abd of Malik al-Mulk.

~ Shukran Jazeelan.









-- A dying man needs to die, as a sleepy man needs to sleep, and there comes a time when it is wrong, as well as useless, to resist.
Stewart Alsop









P.S:   
The thoughts published here(since 2006) may or may not define my current or future perspectives/paradigms.
I would like to apologise to few individuals/groups openly through this note for not seeking permission to reuse their material, quotes, pictures etc. that were used in building this blog in the past. (you can't blame me, I was an anarchist then).
 

Eight Lessons in 27 years

As I am slowly moving towards the end of a journey (you may probably learn in next post - what's this journey), I would like to list down the important lessons that I learnt(learning) in my life through various incidents, experiences, sources, art, literature, philosophies, mysticism, psychology, science, abstractness, falsehood, deception, grief, hunger, illness, patriotism, rebellion, wealth, temptations, pride, arrogance, envy, ignorance, power, fear, culture, language, parents and my extended human, animal and plant families .. here's an attempt to paint them with images and quotes for you to reflect and agree or disagree ..
 
1. On Existence (On Ego & Soul)

“I can't believe, I'm simply not existing because it doesn't seem true, and I would just be lying to myself.“

"My soul is my guide, for my soul is of that abode

I will not speak of the earthly, I am of the unknown."

"I did not come here on my own accord, nor will I thus leave. 

He who brought me here, shall return me to my very own."

"The sun itself is proof the sun exists!

Seek your proofs, but don't turn your face from it."
 
"Do not ask, Where is God?
Rather ask, Where am I?"

"All day I think about it, then at night I say it. Where did I come from, and what am I supposed to be doing? I have no idea. My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that, and I intend to end up there."

"I am naught, He is all; there is no being but God's."

2. On Knowledge (On Intuition & Intellect)

“Seek knowledge from the cradle to the grave”

"Given that true reality (haqiqat) is obscured by forms and appearances, as we have seen, an epistemological question is inevitable: how reliable are intellect and logic as a means of discovering and knowing the real? Can we humans reach certainty about our knowledge and our beliefs? "
 
"Knowledge that is acquired
is not like this.
Those who have it worry if
audiences like it or not.
It's a bait for popularity.
Disputational knowing wants customers.
It has no soul.

The only real customer is God.
Chew quietly
your sweet sugarcane God-Love, and stay
playfully childish.”

"Come, seek, for search is the foundation of fortune:
every success depends upon focusing the heart.Everything you possess of skill, and wealth and handicraft,
wasn't it first merely a thought and a quest?"

3. On Mistakes (On Lessons & Wisdom)

"Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from."

"Mistakes are the portals of discovery."

“Come follow me and you will find the way.
Your mistakes can also lead you to the Truth.
When you ask, the answer will be given.”

"The most useful piece of learning for the uses of life is to unlearn what is untrue - so, the most important lessons lay not in what I needed to learn, but in what I first needed to unlearn."

"Who are the learned? Those who practice what they know."

4. On Evil (On Choice & Consequences)

"We stopped checking for monsters under our bed and we realized they were inside of us?"

"The lion who breaks the enemy's ranks
is a minor hero
compared to the lion who overcomes himself."

"Thou does not know evil till thou knowst good: (only) from (one) contrary is it possible to discern (the other) contrary, 0 youth!"

"All evil qualities—oppression, hatred, envy, greed, mercilessness, pride—when they are within yourself, they bring no pain. When you see them in another, then you shy away and feel the pain."

"God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches by means of opposites, so that you will have two wings to fly, not one."

“…whoever rejects evil and believes in God hath grasped the most trustworthy hand-hold, that never breaks. "


5. On Love (On Need & Greed)

"One should not confuse true love with the feeling felt for members of the opposite sex. Such love, although sometimes transformed into true love, is deficient, temporary, and has no inherent value unless he desireth for his neighbour that which he desireth for himself."

"And if a person were given all of the world and what is in it, it
would not fill this emptiness(greed)."

"You know what love is?
It is all kindness, generosity.
Disharmony prevails when
You confuse lust with love, while
The distance between the two
Is endless."

"The lover’s ailment is different from all ailments; Love is the astrolabe of God’s mysteries."


6. On Struggle (On Purpose & Goals) 

"The angel is saved by knowledge, The beast by brute ignorance;
Midway between and struggling Such a predicament is man's!"

“Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.”

"The intelligent desire self-control;
children want candy."

"Speak truth, even in the face of a tyrant."

"The most excellent Jihad is that for the conquest of self."


7. On Freedom (On Oppression & Responsibility)

"Knowing your enemy is winning half the battle"

"It doesn't mean that I advocate violence, but at the same time, I am not against using violence in self-defense. I don't call it violence when it's self-defense, I call it intelligence."

"Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change."

"The undisciplined person doesn’t wrong himself alone–
but sets fire to the whole world."

"Either way, change will come. It could be bloody, or it could be beautiful. It depends on us."

"Lawless are they that make their wills their law."

"If you do not feel ashamed of anything, then you can do whatever your desires want."


8. On Submission (On Liberation & Peace)

"The worldly comforts are not for me. I am like a traveler, who takes a rest under a tree in the shade and then goes on his way."

"Let God be the ruler over your hearts, not the duniya (world)"
 
"Do you want to enter paradise?
To walk the path of Truth
You need the grace of God.
We all face death in the end.
But on the way, be careful
Never to hurt a human heart!"

"People who attach their identity & happiness to things of the material, who are happy when their relationship is going good, or when their work is going good, or when their financial status is good, they will be among the losers. A submitter's happiness is attached to Divine. And the Divine is eternal, That is why a submitter always says 'I seek refuge in God' to whatever good or bad things that happen to them"

"Forgiveness is a creative act, a true gift, that changes us from prisoners of the past to liberated people at peace with our memories"

"True devotion is for itself:
not to desire heaven nor to fear hell."




~ "All praise is due to Allah, the Lord of all the worlds."

The Circle of Life

I would thank " Disney's - The Lion King" for without it I would not have any idea to explain away the buffet that took place yesterday in front of my youngest niece.

While I was waiting, my little niece came out of her school, we noticed a few birds hovering about. We had great view while seated on parked bike and enjoyed this spectacular scene of nature for a few moments until I spotted exactly what these birds were up to . . . "road kill". A dead squirrel to be exact.
At a little distance but right in front of my bike.

My niece is fond of these squirrels, enjoyed watching them actively running and stealing nuts, she found them cute and at one time insisted to take one as pet back home, probably after watching "Chipmuks" on TV.


Spotting the dead squirrel, instantly I got up in a bit of shock, I relaxed as it wasn’t me that hit the poor deceased squirrel. It looked like it had been dead a while what with its poor limbs all stuck up and all, and the insides exposed.

I distracted the little niece, as started messing with my Sony Ericsson(K810i), but silently when out of the corner of my eye, to notice the feast begin. I immediately tried my to shelter my niece them from the violent incident taking place, but it was too late. She was already staring ... wide-eyed, mouths open ... unable to look away.
Innocence lost.!!

I sighed and asked her to look at me so I could see how traumatized she was.
“That’s kind of nasty to see isn’t it princess?” I said scrambling for something profound yet funny to change the somber mood. Suddenly the words of Elton John’s Circle of Life song flashed and I managed to say “It’s life though.”, and I sighed.

My lil'niece, a cartoon fanatic - must have heard the same thing as she piped up, “Yes, it’s the circle of life. That squirrel will feed the birds & then baby-birds in nest. It’s life.”

“Yes, You are so right.” I replied.

I looked closer and asked her if she was okay and she responded in a very wise tone, “I'm okay . . . those birds are just hungry.” came the reply with confidence.

My niece is very wise and brave indeed.




~ “One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”

When death becomes meaningless

" And to say that, 'this life is misery' is to accept our own thoughts generated in the mind. If we didn't accept this existence as misery, paradoxically Life and Death are the same movement. Like Love, Death is state of mind. So, one must totally die to find what Love is. And to go into the question of what is Death, What kind of Life is beyond death - whether there is re-incarnation, whether there is resurrection - all that, becomes rather meaningless if you don't know how to live. Therefore, our world is a mere reflection of who we have become"

We are beings of limited capacities, and limited mental capabilities. Yet, we live in an universe of infinite knowledge of infinite truth.
Some of us use our capacities and capabilities to discover, to understand and to investigate.
Since our capacities are limited, we must understand that our conclusions are mere perceptions of "our journey".
None of us have the complete truth, rather each one of us has his own perception of the truth.
Since the creator is infinite in knowledge, presence and wisdom, we cannot fully understand the creator, let alone judge the creator and to fight with each other over which viewpoint is the correct one.

~ "The good die young - because they see it's no use living if you've got to be good"

The end is nigh

I'm not sure what it says about the human race that we like to revel in our own potential demise and destruction, but there's no denying that the masses love a good apocalyptic film. Whether on a grand scale or a smaller one, studios release multiple films each year detailing the death and destruction of the human race.

Whatever it is that makes us so masochistic, I can't say I begrudge it. It's given us some fantastic and, dare I say, fun films. Films about the apocalypse offer us a way to witness the end of the world as one filmmaker knows it and still feel fine.

28 Days Later - There's nothing quite like the images of a desolate and deserted London to make your stomach sink. Yet, it's brilliant and Danny Boyle's scenes featuring Cillian Murphy aimlessly wandering around an empty London are some of the best apocalyptic scenes ever committed to film. Pair that with a group of remaining survivors evading those stricken with a zombie symptom inducing virus and you've got a truly engaging horror/apocalypse film.

Independence Day - Okay, so it's campy. It's cheesy, but it also has Bill Pullman, Jeff Goldblum and Will Smith facing down alien psychopaths together. Tell me when that will happen again? Not to mention, the scenes of alien destruction throughout New York City and one memorable shot of the White House being blown to smithereens make the film all the more, well, wicked-fun.

Terminator 2: Judgment Day - Terminator 2: Judgment Day's brief scenes of a nuclear holocaust are both disturbing and unforgettable. They give an urgency to the present day action of the film and provide a glimpse of a potential world's end that, for some, is all too close to home.

On the Beach - Now here's one that gets overlooked quite often. While many of today's apocalyptic films focus on visions of destruction and desolation, On the Beach is one that deals more with the human drama of knowing the end is all too close. As a group of nuclear fallout survivors attempt to live out their final days before radiation poisoning claims them, they must struggle with the attempt to make their last days on earth ones that are truly worth living.

Red Dawn - Let's face it. This movie is downright ridiculous. Not to mention it's not so much of an apocalyptic film as it is one detailing what appears to be the breakdown of American government and society. That being said, you can't help but enjoy the cheesy acting and the ludicrous plotline - a band of amateur militants (who were high school kids, no less!) protecting their country from invading Soviet forces. To call it silly is an understatement. To call it a guilty pleasure is absolutely correct.

Shaun of the Dead - It's rare that a film can bridge camp and comedy with a poignant storyline, but Shaun manages to do just that. At times funny and at others, moving, Shaun proves that camp and story can go hand-in-hand. Shaun of the Dead treats the zombie and end-of-the-world as we know it genres with a tongue-in-cheek humor that will have you laughing at the break down of civilization. Oh and did I mention that it also stars the incomparable Bill Nighy? That right there is reason enough for you to run to the store right now and pick up a copy.

The Quiet Earth - A man, Zac Hobson, kills himself over the guilt of his involvement in helping destroy the planet, but wakes up to discover that he hasn't died, and may actually be the last person left in the world. He eventually finds two others who were in the process of dying when the apocalyptic accident occurred. With impressive graphics and an ending that ranks among the best in all of film history, The Quiet Earth is not to be missed for disaster film enthusiasts.

Knowing - A little boy finds a paper with a number sequence written by another kid from 50 years earlier, which his father (Nicolas Cage) deciphers to reveal the date and body count of every major global disaster in the past 50 years, as well as several that have yet to happen - including the end of the world. Add some incredible scenes of devastation - including an incredibly realistic plane crash - and an alien sub-plot, and you've got yourself a strangely awesome end-of-the-world film. Bonus points for Nicolas Cage not destroying the film just by being in it.

Akira - This groundbreaking 1988 anime film takes place in a new city rebuilt over the remains of Tokyo, and involves a mysterious group of individuals with psionic powers. Caught in the middle of a war between the government and the rebellion, a young gang soon discovers that one of their friends is far more than he appears. This film is intensely psychedelic and complex, and demands several viewings to fully grasp the full concepts behind it. All the same, it's a milestone for animated films, and one of the more original in terms of armageddon scenarios.

The Stand - A government-spawned superflu wipes out all of mankind, and the few survivors left face a terrifying new reality. While the film doesn't do half of the justice to the Stephen King that it should (most of his films don't), the overall concept and visual execution of The Stand - including the mass death in the Lincoln Tunnel - is one of the most terrifying apocalyptic depictions you'll see on film. Bonus points for the appearance of the horrifying Randall Flagg, a frequent character among King's novels.

Deep Impact - A comet is screaming through space on a collision course with Earth, and a desperate attempt to use missile-borne nuclear weapons to deflect it fails. Fragments of the massive comet strike the planet in advance of the Big Bang, causing megatsunamis and catastrophic conditions that set this film far ahead of its knockoff film Armageddon, which was released two months later. Aerosmith may have lent one of heir daughters and written songs for that one, but critics and experts agree that Deep Impact was far better in real-life depiction and execution of events. It's worth a viewing, if you haven't seen it in a while.

12 Monkeys - Based on a short film called La Jetee, the film follows Bruce Willis as a criminal from a horrible future in which a global plague has pushed mankind underground, with devastating result. Cole is sent back in time to obtain a sample of the original plague before it mutated, for obvious intents of finding a cure. On his first time-trip to the past, Cole is committed to a mental hospital where he meets Jeffrey Goines (Brad Pitt) who we eventually learn is part of a terrorist group called The Army of the Twelve Monkeys - the group believed to be behind the spreading of the plague. What Cole doesn't grasp in his delirium (he loses the ability to determine what time he's in or whether he's dreaming) is that, at least in this reality, changing history is impossible, so his efforts are essentially useless and mankind is inevitably doomed.

Mad Max 2: The Road Warrior - The second and best of the Mad Max series takes place at a time when nuclear war has annihilated the world, and Mel Gibson travels through a devastated Australia looking for fuel to keep moving through the desolation and despair. Fuel is more valuable than gold, and when Max finds a settlement of good people defending a refinery from a murderous biker gang, he's forced into confrontation against his will that finds him as the anti-hero in a brutal fight for survival. Easily one of the best post apocalyptic movies ever made.

The Omega Man - Remade from a 1964 film called The Last Man on Earth, The Omega Man finds Charlton Heston as Robert Neville, a man who appears to be the only uninfected survivor of a super-plague that's killed off all of mankind. All other survivors have been reduced to night-dwelling race of vampiric mutants, and Neville discovers that he's the only surviving recipient of a serum against the plague. The effects aren't fantastic, but the acting is great, and without it, we wouldn't have I Am Legend. Imagine that horrible, horrible world.

The Postman - A lot of people are going to disagree with this one, but this was a movie that really received a bad wrap, and as far as a post apocalyptic film, there is an interesting world drawn out in detail after an unspecified war laid civilization to waste. There is no standing government, a roaming militia turned army led by General Bethlehem invoking special rules terrorizes survivors, while the hero is a drifter who can quote and perform Shakespeare.
He stumbles into a mail truck, claims to be from the restored United States, and what begins as a con in order to get some food and shelter spawns into a grass roots attempt to reestablish something important, starting with communication. This is a movie that had a bad rap, but is a solid post apocalyptic movie. Now "Waterworld" . . . that was a stinker.

Missed out from list: Logan's Run, Armageddon, 2012, The Day after Tomorrow, Children of Men, etc.

Awaiting: The Road, The Book of Eli.

~ When it comes to the movies, there's more than enough film-goers that can't wait for the end of the world

Thank God, It's Doomsday

Qualia

This is a simple concept, in the programmer's term: idea is an interface between the mind and the object. Without the interface the idea and the mind cannot connect.

For most solipsists ( People who believe that, their mind is the only thing that exists - someone like me ) the question of external world is an interesting explanation.
They believe, mind is an immaterialistic-fabric and that is the only thing to ever exist, all the other things in the external environment are just objects with which the mind can interface using an Idea!

So, another question springs up here: What of the other people in the environment, who have their own minds!! - According to the solipsist there is only one rule:"My mind is the only thind that exists all other minds are not minds but objects instead, which inturn can be connected/interfaced using an idea"

Since every "Mind" is aware that they are alive in reality only when they are capable of generating ideas/thoughts, this sub-plot present an unusual and fascinating twist on the concept - to explain it better i ll quote Mart Twain's "The Mysterious Stranger" of Eseldorf ( Esel = stupid ; dorf = village ; syn: village of stupid people )

"..In a little while you will be alone in shoreless space, to wander its limitless solitudes without friend or comrade forever--for you will remain a thought, the only existent thought, and by your nature inextinguishable, indestructible. But I, your poor servant, have revealed you to yourself and set you free. Dream other dreams, and better!...You perceive, now, that these things are all impossible except in a dream. You perceive that they are pure and puerile insanities, the silly creations of an imagination that is not conscious of its freaks - in a word, that they are a dream, and you the maker of it. The dream-marks are all present; you should have recognized them earlier. It is true, that which I have revealed to you; there is no God, no universe, no human race, no earthly life, no heaven, no hell. It is all a dream - a grotesque and foolish dream. Nothing exists but you( as a thought ). And you are but a thought - a vagrant thought, a useless thought, a homeless thought, wandering forlorn among the empty eternities!"

Scary, but more realistic than the reality itself that you perceived.!

Well then,"How can you notice that you were dreaming? Only by awakening from your dream. So, how can you awake from your life?". All you Zombies.!
You are the thought that rules the universe, but you are in such a state of worldy penace , to the extent that you are unaware that you rule the universe or even, in fact, that the universe exists.

Following this concept, defining death would be easier: The point where your mind ceases to generate ideas, it may be because of the follwoing reason: A mind that reaches self-awareness, it understands that it does not exist as Mr.XYZ or Ms.PQR, instead that as a thought itself, all matter, pain, age, disease would mean nothing - no point in existing as a thought if you know this ultimate reality!. Moksha. The mind just pushes its self-destruction button and poof.! - Defining Death. You are God, you are the universe, You are a Thought, you are a mind.

These things doesn't seem to be in common-sense, but that is what solipsism is about.-Mind and Insanity- everyone is insane, until his thoughts exists - because sanity would be attained only when the mind dies.

Don't you know that Dogs dream ?, they of course think and generate thoughts!

Many a times your mind would have tricked your brain, by making you believe an action which is happening to you at that instance for very first time, would seem to have happened sometime in past or for a micro-second you belived that its weird to explain, but say it this way:

- Monday, 27th, 2017: There is a flash/dream of Mr.XYZ going to strange place and getting a banana from market, and there he notices this old lady with green outfit smiling at him.. Poof! Dream over.

--- Note this point: Mr.XYZ doesn't remembers or is unable to recall the dream after he wakes up. And he goes on with his normal life. That evening he gets an urgent call asking him to visit his client at india. He has never been to india ever before.He leaves to india. --

- Thursday,30th, 2017: Mr.XYZ finsihes off the work and moves to have a look around. He feels hungry and looks over to have a snack, he reaches a market nearby, and first thing he notices is a ripe banana, he goes for it with strange feeling that, this has happened to me before... and next i would see a smiling-lady, before he completes his thought, a store lady, wearing a green-outfit smiles at him and asks, "Sir, how could i help you..!"

--- This makes no sense, but whats all this wierd stuff all about ?

See, all this science, religion, god, career, family, friends, television wall these worldly things are just figments, that your mind is learning, and until it learns itself, it would exist.

Okay Mister, I agree but what of the people/minds that die of accident: "They don't die instead your mind generates a thought that he is dead": and Your Mind is insane.

"It hated me because I talked to it."

"You TALKED to it?" exclaimed Ford. "What do you mean you talked to it?"

"Simple. I got very bored and depressed, so I went and plugged myself
into it's external computer feed. I talked to the computer at great length,
and explained my view of the universe to it, " said Marvin.

"And what happened? " pressed Ford.

"It committed suicide, " said Marvin.


Thanks,
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"The False Light." - The Apocalypse Trilogy ( Part 1 )

Lucifer was lying beside the apple-tree, cool water gushing around forming a virtual island of their resting place.
Lilith was still asleep, peaceful - without knowledge of what was yet to come.

Lucifer had played with her the whole night, their love seemed to be endless, those passionate kisses and the sweet-struggles were still fresh in his mind. Their bodies were like being blown about to and fro by a violent storm, without hope of rest - aimlessly, as the Lust played its music.
He gently pushed away the string of hair annoying her peaceful sleep.
A flash of thought passed his mind - " Am i one of those Opportunists, who in life did nothing, neither for good nor evil ? "


The question was still stuck in his mind as he left Lilith there - guilt was screaming inside him - he walked till a distance - from where he could get a good view of her, a soft tear rolled down his cheeks. He turned around spread open his wings - flapped and never did he turned back.He had to leave Lilith as she did not belong to him.

Lilith hearing the faint beats of Lucifer's wings awoke - ran behind him like a mad-woman - she cried her heart-out - begged Lucifer to come back. Lucifer turned deaf to her pleadings.

Lilith was broken - she sat down and gazed at her feet - they were bleeding - thorns embedded in them.
And Michael landed before her - he had a fierce look ," O ye lady of Adam - thou hath disregarded the true love of your mate -.. ".

As he continued, Lilith spoke, " The one i loved hath abandoned me, and the one who loves me ... - please ask him to forget me and i know he won't forgive me though - ... and i am not ready to listen anymore", Michael left her alone with defeated shoulders.

Lilith cursed herself - and she broke like a shattering glass - in all directions. Out of each piece flew a winged-creature, red, fork-tailed -- The Harpies..!!
Someone died in G-d's kingdom for the first time. Lilith was death's first taste.

Michael saw this from distance - it was the most disturbing sight he had ever seen.

Lucifer too saw this, and screamed in agony, he wished that he was never born to see this sight.He questioned himself - why was this happening to him, "I was the only one who refused to submit to Adam just because that I espoused a great love for G-d – and, that i had sworn to never bow to anyone except G-d., just because i am the most loyal lover of G-d, ... what a cruel play, deprived of love and thrown into Inferno till eternity - for my loyalty ?"

Michael, knew that there was something wrong - and G-d had "The plan for salvation" in place but why did Lilith had to do this, and how would the plan be carried over now - with Lilith dead, there will be no children of Adam and no salvation. How is this supposed to be ??
Questions in his mind - hundred.

Michael conveyed the happened to G-d, and went to Eden to console Adam - and he was shocked to see Lilith with Adam. Confused and Puzzled - he flew to the Throne - and asked what was happening, -- G-d replied, " My faithful servant Michael - The one you saw is not Lilith, but Eve - and i hath created her out of Adam's rib - Adam and his children would be under the veil of forgetfulness, until the Apocalypse".

Mad in Lilith's love and overcome by the grief - Lucifer vowed to avenge Lilith's death, and promised himself , "I will ascend to Heaven; I will raise my throne above the stars of G-d; I will sit enthroned on the mount of assembly, on the utmost heights of the sacred mountain. I will ascend above the tops of the clouds; I will make myself like the Most High".

What happened next was the "War of Heaven", - Lucifer was finally defeated and Michael stood over Lucifer ready to strike.



G-d intervened and said," i need a private word with you , Dear Lucifer".

G-d, explained that everything had been predestined - Adam - Lilith - The Bow - Lilith's end - Lucifer's Anger - War of Heaven -... and so will be the Plan of Salvation.

As a Slave of War - your freedom is at the end of Apocalypse and it would happen only if you complete your duties agreeing to the "The Plan of Salvation". And Lilith will be waiting for you till the End of the Final day.

Lucifer questioned," But.... Why me ?".
"Because Lucifer - ", G-d replied, " I trust you the most and you are the most-desperate* of all".


*desperate/temptation - equalsiblis in arabic

Insane's words : Curse Dante Alighieri

"And she said, it's Apocalypse" - The Apocalypse Trilogy ( Part 3 )

At a time unknown to man, but preordained, when people least expect it, God will give permission for the Final-Judgement to begin. The archangel Raphael, referred to as the Caller, will sound a horn sending out a "Blast of Truth"



Waiting at the bus-stop, i was worried - the sky was already darkening up. The clouds ready to spit rain anytime made me uneasy. At a little distance i saw a young-mother, holding her baby-wrapped tight in a single piece of cloth - she played and gently tickled the baby's small feet, and the cute little thing began to wriggle like a bundle of happiness : I smiled.

The time as if had planned to stand-still, and my bus was not there - it seemed like an eternity passing.

The identity-tag hanging from my neck danced to the wind's tune.... and then it stood still - hanging in the middle of air - suspended.
There was a deafening HORN sound- it was supposed to be my bus, but before i could think anymore, i was being crushed, my face lying flat on the road,my lungs choked, my heart stopped, i felt like dying:though i never experienced death before and then it was a black-out....!!



I woke up:

Everything seemed normal, except for the whole environment : very different from where i was before - it was like painted with a giant invisible paintbrush like a painter's imagination coming alive a beautiful mixture of bright colors.

I closed my eyes - took a deep breath, the wind brought a refreshing fragrance.


The earth seemed to be a vast stretch of plain, it seemed like by some magic the earth has been flattened and rolled to a celestial-sheet, stars shining at the hands reach.There were no trees, neither beasts nor avians.But only me and a lot of similar others, we all walked to a big gathering, the HORN's sound was not deafening now.


I heard my neighbour saying, "Today's friday: And i knew that this HORN was 'bout to get all Atlantis on our ass.." the other responding " Forget it ! It's to late " : I giggled secretly.


As we walked : I wondered, if i am in a dream. The gathering was huge, numbers would die counting the people gathered there. The moon seemed like a giant cracked-egg, pieces falling apart - it was a beautiful sight.



I didn't even remember how long i was dead.I just kept walking along.

It was a pathetic sight later, the monk was sobbing badly : he did'nt want to leave his ferrari behind.

Someone behind me said, that he had fought along-side `The Messiah, in his second coming` against the `Devil's Army`, and he died in that battle. Was he kidding, seriously ?

In front of me was a guy narrating the horrific battle in which he and his fellow people tried saving the Holy-Shrine but in vain, were captured - he wept as the shrine was broken down to ruins and then everyone captured were slaughtered.

What was i supposed to say here, " I was standing at the middle of the road, foolishly looking around and then a vehicle rammed in and made a pizza out of me.!!" .

Finally the Judgement was over, i thanked that it didn't took much time : It was easier than getting a movie ticket.

I was handed over a scroll by a gorgeous looking angel: it read " Welcome to the Hell - Follow the Map directions to the Perdition", signed: Lilith.

Then i realised: I was naked - so was everyone - but i was an exception , the identitytag was still hanging around my neck.

And then the red-skinned-angel said this with a wicked smile, " Happy Apocalypse..!!"

Her forked tail wagged wildly - until then i failed to notice the pitchfork in her hand.

I questioned "You, Lilith - Satan's Mistress ??". The smile was enough to give me the answer, "oh great - i said to myself - Welcome to the Hell..!!"

10 Most Powerful Persons of Modern Time

The list is on 10 Most powerful and influential persons of modern time, who had disturbed the Peace.




George Bush

Involvement in Afgan-War and Iraq War. Conspiracy exists in the September 11 attacks.

Adolf Hitler




Involvement in The Holocaust and one of the Prime cause for the World-War II.




Saddam Hussain



Involvement in Kuwait War and Iraq War.



Osama Bin Laden






Involvement in September 11 Attacks and Bombing of American Embassy.



Stalin




Iron handed rule, and records say that about 800,000 prisoners were executed (for either political or criminal offences) under Stalin, while about 1.7 million died in the GULAG and some 389,000 perished during kulak forced resettlement — a total of about 3 million victims.




Che Guevara



A Warrior of Peace, as many say. He was involved in many revolutions. He supported Fidel Castro, and other revolutions in Congo and Bolivia.He promoted the Gureilla warfare technique. He is believed to be more a revolutionary than a man of peace.




Idi Amin



Once, the President of Uganda.The number of people killed as a result of his regime is unknown; estimates range from 80,000 to 500,000






Mao Zedong





After his death, the Communist Party of China delivered the verdict that Mao's crimes during the Great Leap Forward and the Cultural Revolution meant that he had been 30% wrong. Mao was undoubtedly responsible for monstrous crimes. But they were done at the cost of making China one of the most powerful economy in the world.

Prabhakaran

Involved in various crimes, assasinations and terrorist activities, with a view of creating an independent Tamil State in Modern Sri Lanka.

Mohammad Ali Jinnah

The Man behind the making of Pakistan -Involved in The Partition of India, The Partition led to various grave crimes and social unrest to the refugees and it has been recorded that large number of life and property was lost during the partition riots.

~ To conclude - Insanity is Finally the battle to power - the most powerful insane's name is written down in the History books.

Let's get lost

"There is so much to think about - but - So less we can understand...

It was an usual walk to my work-place, but the mood today was different - i wondered, Why are we all not same, why should one be having an unique face, name, his/her own features... and Why should each and every leaf in a tree should be different from the others, what make every individual oxygen atom i breathe and my blood carries to my brain be different, what makes a monkey different from a Comet - all have the same building blocks, quarks -> subatomic particles - > atoms... but it is so weird just thinking like this.

Is there a Big Simulation program running in each and every brain here, that creates an illusion that everything around us is at the same place as we see - (I m still not sure that if my keyboard ever exists..!!)

Imagine a program (Similar to a computer code being executed somewhere by someone) and we are all the Objects and Functions in it - (Not inspired from the Matrix Trilogy..!!)

It is just a simple word - "Why"
What was the reason that the pebble lying beside the road had to be at the place it has to be, what is it's purpose being there at that exact location in this three dimensional maze - that we call Earth.

What makes the single grain of rice - that i eat was custom made for me from a distant-remote part to reach my tummy ?

What makes the heavens(galaxy, universe and stuff) hang balanced as they are...


....There is so much to think about - but - So less we can understand"

- Let's get Lost.


Is this the way to - Experience God ? - Feel God ? - Realise God ?

I guess - I just said a prayer.

Live from Hell.

“Here over an acre of ground lay dead and dying people. You could not see which was which ... The living lay with their heads against the corpses and around them moved the awful, ghostly procession of emaciated, aimless people, with nothing to do and with no hope of life, unable to move out of your way, unable to look at the terrible sights around them ... Babies had been born here, tiny wizened things that could not live ... A mother, driven mad, screamed at a British sentry to give her milk for her child, and thrust the tiny mite into his arms, then ran off, crying terribly. He opened the bundle and found the baby had been dead for days.
This day at Belsen was the most horrible of my life.[ref.]”

A Matter of Life or Death...

Well here you are
at the edge of the abyss...


at the beginning of infinity
heaven or hell


an afterlife
or a nothingness


forgiveness
or an eternity of suffering ?


Does anyone really know ?


Why have you come here ?
What do you need ?


To Find a Way to Live ?
or To Find a Way To Die ?



_ _ _ _ _ _ _







I feel happy, I feel pretty good, I feel normal.

I am grateful.



It's been 23 years now that my life stay

on earth has been voluntary.




You have a chance right now

to start your life over

instead of trying to end it.



You can resurrect yourself

from this living death

to restore and re-start your life anew.






~ Insane